I am pretty certain this chapter of my life is now closed. A lot of things came crashing together a year plus ago that made me realize this part of me needed to go back in a box. One -I posed for a photographer and the pics he took made me realize I have been kidding myself. UOW is a perfect name for me. I have no business taking nude photos. Two -I met with a photography instructor who told me that because of a certain issue that I have - I will never be a good photographer. I tried to pretend that he was wrong but... he wasn't. Three -My husband was not comfortable with me taking photos and about other things about me that will go unsaid. I couldn't go on in the direction I was going knowing our relationship was headed for disaster.
Life is not a FB meme. You really can't just do what makes you happy - not when it hurts those that you love.
I have deleted over 4,000 photos of my erotics pics (not just photos of me) from my storage and will continue to do so as long as time and privacy allow for it. I realize that the genie is out of the bottle online but that is different than having someone find CDs of my erotic pics after I am dead.
My camera sits unused and has for nearly a year. I no longer have the desire to take photos of much of anything though I try to make an effort for my family so that we have some record of our lives so that future generations have something to store in a dusty box in the attic.
Life is fine. I am not unhappy. I just had to give myself a bitch slap, do a U turn and go back to where I started. Life just is what it is. You do what you have to do to survive.
Thank you to those who still send notes of inquiring as to how I am doing. I don't come her much anymore but it is nice to be missed.