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I am pretty certain this chapter of my life is now closed. A lot of things came crashing together a year plus ago that made me realize this part of me needed to go back in a box. One -I posed for a photographer and the pics he took made me realize I have been kidding myself. UOW is a perfect name for me. I have no business taking nude photos. Two -I met with a photography instructor who told me that because of a certain issue that I have - I will never be a good photographer. I tried to pretend that he was wrong but... he wasn't. Three -My husband was not comfortable with me taking photos and about other things about me that will go unsaid. I couldn't go on in the direction I was going knowing our relationship was headed for disaster.
Life is not a FB meme. You really can't just do what makes you happy - not when it hurts those that you love.
I have deleted over 4,000 photos of my erotics pics (not just photos of me) from my storage and will continue to do so as long as time and privacy allow for it. I realize that the genie is out of the bottle online but that is different than having someone find CDs of my erotic pics after I am dead.
My camera sits unused and has for nearly a year. I no longer have the desire to take photos of much of anything though I try to make an effort for my family so that we have some record of our lives so that future generations have something to store in a dusty box in the attic.
Life is fine. I am not unhappy. I just had to give myself a bitch slap, do a U turn and go back to where I started. Life just is what it is. You do what you have to do to survive.
Thank you to those who still send notes of inquiring as to how I am doing. I don't come her much anymore but it is nice to be missed.
UOW
Life is not a FB meme. You really can't just do what makes you happy - not when it hurts those that you love.
I have deleted over 4,000 photos of my erotics pics (not just photos of me) from my storage and will continue to do so as long as time and privacy allow for it. I realize that the genie is out of the bottle online but that is different than having someone find CDs of my erotic pics after I am dead.
My camera sits unused and has for nearly a year. I no longer have the desire to take photos of much of anything though I try to make an effort for my family so that we have some record of our lives so that future generations have something to store in a dusty box in the attic.
Life is fine. I am not unhappy. I just had to give myself a bitch slap, do a U turn and go back to where I started. Life just is what it is. You do what you have to do to survive.
Thank you to those who still send notes of inquiring as to how I am doing. I don't come her much anymore but it is nice to be missed.
UOW
Devious Journal Entry
I am still ever so slowly deleting my deviantart photos. Five more gone today. As time goes by I find it easier to let them go. Eventually, I will delete the page. Once 7 plus pages of photos - now one page. It has taken me a long time but each time I come back I find it easier to delete. I don't know the woman in those photos anymore. She is a stranger to me.
I am no longer sure if I am glad I explored this side of me. Though it was liberating and gratifying at the time - I now realize how immensely destructive my exploration was to my relationship and my life.
You are free to choose BUT you are not free from the consequence of you
Down the rabbit hole
I checked my stats today and saw 919 watchers. Wow. That surprised me. When I first started my AGING SUCKS project I didn't think anyone would look at my aging body. Now three years down the line and a few hundred photos later I see that there are quite a few warped individuals out there who look- time and time again. :-P
I have had a lot of hard knocks in 2014 the biggest being the loss of my sister and friend. Relationships struggles. Personal shame. Guilt. Hurt. It seems there is no end or correction for what ails me without turning my life upside down. So... I remain unhappy to try to keep those around me stable and happy. I
That time again
Since I am seeing quite a few new watchers I am popping my regular intro journal entry back up to answer the usual questions.
Questions I am getting via notes:
1. Yes. I am married. I am not looking for any relationships other than friendships.
2. Yes. I am the model AND the photographer in all of my photos.
3. Yes. I really am 50
4. No. I am not in love you and I won't marry you no matter how amazing your cock is but thank you for sharing the photos.
5. No. I won't pose for you or chat with you on cam.
6. No. I won't change my username. It is how I felt about myself when I started this account. It now serves to remind me of how
journal update
If you haven't checked out the photos on 2women2 you are missing some really fantastic photography. Makes me want to throw my camera in the trash!
Work sure cuts in to my time to take slutty- uh, I mean artistic nude photos and the time I have to chat but I do check in regularly to see what everyone is up to.
Since I am seeing quite a few new watchers I am popping my regular intro journal entry back up to answer the usual questions.
Questions I am getting via notes:
1. Yes. I am married. I am not looking for any relationships other than friendships.
2. Yes. I am the model and the photographer in all of my photos.
3. Yes. I really a
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Hope you are well I enjoyed your work